Monday, April 23, 2012

Getting into perspective!

As most of you know from my other blog, KaLynn, my mom passed on a couple of weeks ago. April 6.

She drove me nuts. Ab-so-lute-ly  bonkers. Especially in the past year.

But now that I can't talk to her, I've been miserable. Crying at the sight of a shirt she would like. Crying because I can't talk to her while the boys practice ball. Crying myself to sleep at my desk at work.

This went on for two weeks. Every. Day. Every waking hour. Minute. Nano-second. I was getting to the place I could not function.

Then I got a text message from my Oregon friend, Rob. Her MRI came back clean just a new symptom of fibromyalgia.

The next day, I got a text from my long time friend, LeeLee, that her back surgery seems to have messed up and she is going back to doc today.

Another friend that I talked to at Mom's graveside service, her husband has two more radiation treatments and hopefully he will be done.  He had prostate cancer, stage 4.

A guy that works here,his wife has the same disease Bernie Mack had. She is in constant pain and seems to be in the last stages.

What am I crying for? My mom is in Heaven. My mom is with the Lord. She is not hurting, feeling bad, confused.

In fact she is practically perfect now.

So why am I crying?

I'm crying because I am selfish.

My mom can hear me talk to her.

Just like the Lord can hear me talk to Him.

I needed to be reminded that I need to be back on the prayer train for the people who need it.

Stop looking at me, I am fine. Mom is fine.

Some aren't so lucky.

My Father showed me how blessed Mom is. I am.

How blessed are you?



Chatty Crone said...

Well it is HARD to lose your mom - harder for you then her - but if she went fast - she was blessed. I am sorry to hear this I didn't know. Sandie

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