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In the 6th chapter of Hebrews beginning in verse 4 the Bible says that those who have known Christ if they fall away then to bring them back to repentance would be crucifying Christ all over again and that is not possible.

Am I missing the point here? Am I miss reading this chapter? Or did I understand it correctly?

Help!!!

Have you ever noticed?

Have you ever noticed that when you begin to want to do things the way God wants them done, you get bombarded with other things?

I am trying to remember to wake up and thank my Father for this day. No matter what and to ask Him to fill me with His Presence.

Then I try to read a chapter in the bible every day.

I have noticed that the days that I get too busy to do either/both of these things, my day falls apart.

I get stressed out.

I get mad.

I want to cry.

I hurt someone's feelings.

When I talk to my Father every morning, my day goes better.

I can laugh.

I can let things go.

Things work out.

So why do I have trouble remembering to stop and meditate with my Father every morning?

Hugs!

The Argument

On my way to work the other day, a car in front of me pulled over to the side of the road.

I drove on past.

Then this voice said: You need to go back and check.

I replied: No.

Voice: There's a turn around right there

Me: No.

Voice: It could be a little lady like your mom.

Me: And it could be a mean person. NO.

Voice: And would I let you get hurt?

Me: No, I'm running late for work.

Voice: Bossman is a good man. He will understand.

By this time I am about 6 miles down the road, having made a turn and halfway to work. I realize that the
Voice is not. going. to. stop.

So I turn around.

Voice is laughing I am sure.

I thought I remembered where this car was and thought, whew, it's gone.

Then I thought, IT HAD A FLAT TIRE MORON, IT CAN'T JUST DRIVE OFF.

There it was, at the last bridge.

And it was NOT a grandma, or a young girl.

It was a tall young man.

He was the assistant manager to McDonalds and have been visiting his mom the night before and was on his way to work from her house when he had a flat tire. He wasn't even sure exactly where he was to the the tow truck. But with my help the tow truck found him and I was off to work.

I should know by now that I NEVER, EVER, win when the Voice talks.

Hugs my friends!

Needing Peace?

Find a spot.

Any spot. (Well, don't do this drivin'!)

Close your eyes.

Breathe deep.

Feel the calm.

Hugs.

Signs

Do you ever feel like you are all alone?

With the world is crushing in on you?

Like you have no one to turn to?

You say a short sentence: God, are you real?

Then you hear a laugh, or the wind gently brushes by you, or someone walks by and smiles?

Yes, He was with you.

I asked for a hug, a big God hold.

I felt the wind surround me.

I was hugged.

May you receive your God Hug today!

Wooden cross

While in Wimberly a couple of weeks ago, I saw a wooden cross. It was small compared to the other crosses, only about 6 inches tall about 4 inches across and about 2 inches thick. It was beautiful. It was almost perfect. The lower 2 inches of the bottom of the cross was eaten away. Whether from bugs or tree rot or whatever. It made me think, This is what Jesus was at the moment He took our sins, almost perfect. Just for that instant, he was imperfect, like us. I meant to go back and get that cross. I want that daily reminder on my wall what He did for me. How He became imperfect for me. That He loved me THAT much. Hugs,

Thoughts

I am thinkin that maybe I need to connect with someone that has an HIV+  person in their life.

This is not just someone is sick and will get well.

This is a forever thing.

And it is not so wonderful.

I've been crying for over a year.

I didn't think I could cry so much.

I'm tired of it.

Michael is tired of it.

I think Michael is tired of me.

I don't know what to do.

I can't fix this.

I think I can fix everything.

But I can't fix this.

I feel like a failure.

In my mind, I know that is not true but in my heart I still feel it.

Some days it is all I can do to get out of bed.

Then other days I can't go to sleep.

I'm exhausted but sleep will not come.

Which makes crying so much easier.

At any point, I could just fall apart and become just a pile of bones.