I found this amazing book, John's Story, The Last Eyewitness, from the Jesus Chronicles. It is the first book. There are 3 others in hardback but Matthew's Story is only in hardback. This is the story of John and his life. It is great so far.
I have 3 books going at the same time and this one is the one that is the first for me to pick up.
The next one I pick up is this one: Praying God's Will for Your Life is very good also. Totally different kind of book. It is a slower reading for me. Honestly, I get the studders when reading this book. I'm a control freak. I want to control everything. My life, my kids lives, my job, etc. This is a turning it over to God book. It is a hard book for me to put into practice. I am working on it.
Let Go. Let God.
I know when I do, things are much, much better. But I keep closing my fist and holding on. So I sometimes have to pry those fingers open and give it up.